Friday 18 October 2013
知足 常乐
我想我应该学学知足常乐。
翻看之前写在记事本的一个小篇章，上面写着：妈妈是个很容易满足的人，我祝她母亲节快乐，她说：我每天都快乐啊，有Hippi就快乐了。一如当初听到这句话时，有着纯纯的感动。
有时候会觉得，我是不是对自己，对别人要求太高了？每当我提出这个疑问时，姐姐一定会举脚赞同，说：当然是啦！
有时候不想凡事做到最好（不过我从中学开始也没有做到最好了 :p），但是就一定会觉得，我不尽力一点，将来会后悔吗？是不是不应该这样不尽力呢？然后就会鞭策自己，然后形成压力，无法阻挡。我非常讨厌这样的压力的感觉，最近我已看得比较开了吧，考试没有像以前那样熬夜了，可是压力感依然存在。
有时候会迷惑，我是在朝着自己想要的生活过日子吗？我做的东西有意义吗？做什么才比较有意义？
要活得自己快乐就好，对我来说好像很难做到。
我也想我的确是太在意别人得眼光了，弄得自己心里好矛盾，好困苦。我也想不去在意别人眼光，像他那样，可是做不到，我有他一半就好了。
他总是说，我做事情开心就好，干吗去管别人？
这样的心态有好也有不好，好在可以活得很自在，不好就是很容易冒犯别人。
可是像我这样非常在意别人怎么看，就太辛苦了，我想改变心态，可是就是不能哦。
我想我该像妈妈学习，满足于一切。妈妈一向对任何事物都不抱怨，有的珍惜，没有的也不欲望。爸妈几十年的婚姻相处都几乎不吵架，每天平平静静的过日子，这样的感情虽然平淡，但稳定有安全感。
知足常乐，是个人人都懂的道理，可是要真正做到，终究是一门学问。
感恩所有，珍惜一切。
Sunday 22 September 2013
Tuesday 3 September 2013
关于你.. 所有的好《铭记于心》
你说我脾气坏，常生气，我也觉得我情绪变太多了，所以，我想把你的好全写下，在要生气你的时候翻看，这样或许能缓和我对你的不满，对吗？:p
有了这想法很久了，但是懒惰写，今天才真的提起劲来写，哈哈。
这是我第一次写关于你的好的段落：
我喜欢你每次在下课后等我一起走，有机会时都来找我说话，走路时很绅士的让我先走，下雨时让我走没有淋雨的那一边，用温柔的语气跟我说话，对我生活的关切，还有每次看见我时都给我那温暖的微笑，我好喜欢。
然后.. 还有什么呢.. 嗯..
我喜欢你在我不舒服时恳切的关心，还特地给我送药来，好窝心
我喜欢你在我哭泣时迫切的眼神，拼命劝我不哭，还有能耐把我逗笑
我喜欢你去旅行时心里念着我，累得半死了还兑现你的承诺写信给我
我喜欢你因为我的一句逗你的话开心的笑声，好甜
我喜欢你有注意观察我喜欢的东西，然后给了我一个总结，我心里暗暗赞叹，因为我自己都没认真注意过
我喜欢你在乎我到怕我闷而特地跑来借我手机玩的那时候，好感动
我喜欢你因为我可以不顾别人的眼光，这样的你，好勇敢
有一次，你让我玩你的手机，我说想玩一个游戏，你马上去下载，我说会不会浪费你的data，而你给我一句‘你要玩哦，当然可以啦’，好温暖
我喜欢你对我滔滔不绝的说起你小学中学的事迹，坦白了你以前有点可怕的事情，这样的坦诚，我自愧不如
我想我是喜欢听你讲废话的，没错，这样感觉很轻松
我喜欢你哄我的时候，语气和神情很温柔，超爱你的温柔
我喜欢你在知道我觉得压力的时候给的鼓励，不停地说服我不要紧张，一切会很好
我喜欢你带我出去的时候努力的注意四周，尽量保护我的安全，虽然觉得你有时太过头了，弄到我懊恼
我喜欢你第一个给我的东西竟然是一个防狼器，要我出去时都带着，让我遇到危险时可以防卫
我喜欢你坚持不让我一个人出去，陪着我还当苦力帮我拿东西，辛苦你了，傻瓜
我喜欢你知道我晚上出去后叮咛我早点回家，注意安全，还撑着不睡等我信息，虽然有时还是睡着了 =='
我喜欢你不吝啬的赞美，虽然我因为不好意思而很少赞美你
关于你的美好，到尽头了吗？
心情.. 不明..
生日刚好过了半小时，还无睡意，回到这荒芜已久的部落格爬爬格子，纪念刚步入20岁的我随笔的兴致。
姐妹啊，不是有了爱情就不要友情，我如今明了了你当时的心情，现在也想让另一个姐妹了解，我一直都没有要忽略你们的意思，如果你真的这样觉得。最近真的被刺伤了，你知道吗？我相信，如果你和我一样的情况，你也会想保持联系的，我不会因此奚落伤害你，如果你也赞同，要不要顾顾我的感受？我不是刀枪不入的，十年的友情了，哪些是开玩笑，哪些是话中带真的酸涩，我是听得出的，可能你是想为我好，而我太敏感了，这样的话我抱歉，可我还是被刺伤了 :'( 还是要谢谢你们抽空为我庆祝生日，你第二天有上课也陪我到半夜，而你半夜了还当车夫送我们回家，还遇上road block要检查你license, 愿我们友情根深蒂固，无论怎样都是好姐妹，欧颗？
<3 friendship forever <3
Friday 1 March 2013
如果.. 有如果
如果，月亮和太阳相爱，那是不是不该？
如果，大树和松鼠相爱，那是不是依赖？
如果，闪电和雷声相爱，那是不是太快？
如果，铅笔和笔擦相爱，那是不是阻碍？
如果，白云和雨水相爱，那是不是悲哀？
如果，小草和露珠相爱，那是不是无奈？
如果，烟雾与山峰相爱，那是不是意外？
如果，你和我相爱，那会不会注定伤害？
Wednesday 2 January 2013
Stepping into 2013..?
Today is the first day that we would need to write the year as 2013 while we're writing the date, which for me has always needed some time to adapt to the change. :p
Well, stepping into a brand new year, hasn't got any remarkable special feeling for me, frankly.
Now what matters more to me is the flow of my academic calendar, like when would we be entering the next sem, it somehow feels more significant.
Been celebrating new year eve with bffs at cafe, played with snow sprays and watched people around went crazier as 12.00am came close. Artificial snow flakes and toxic smell of aerosol all around. And thus I made up my mind I'd never celebrate new year in that way again, I never fond of being in a bunch of crazy crowd much. I observed people, and saw many of them were actually standing there staring into somewhere or just wearing a blank expression, which made me wonder were they actually getting any fun? Why do people simply like gathering somewhere like it's a norm even though they don't know what to do there? Sometimes people's behaviour is strange, we force ourselves into doing something, or say just following the norm blindly as we think it's accepted by the majority, and ignore the actual meaning of doing it. We don't really think much about things like: is what I'm doing worth doing? Does it brings any good to me or to others? Do I feel happy doing this? Sometimes we spend money on entertainment that don't really bring happiness to us, even though we knew that well, so why still continue? This's something worth thinking about in this new year. Act wisely. Wisdom, has always been what I'm aspiring for.
The first day of new year.. Hasn't been too nice for me. Maybe what happened on me this day is a reminder for me to be more alert and careful throughout the year. Yep, be more focus.
Review of 2012? It's a year neither too good nor too bad for me I guess.. Can be too much to say and nothing to say at the same time. Well, no mood to comment much at the moment.. :p Sleepy and dizzy..
Hope in 2013? Just occurred to me that I didn't do a list of goals like I used to do in some of the past years, really didn't even thought about that. Anyway, has any of the goals set ever been achieved successfully before? No idea about that, I've even forgotten the goals I once held on to. Sometimes I'd think, am I losing grip of my dreams bit by bit over the years? Definitely yes. The reality that you grow to realize more and more would engulf your fantasy like an ink drop fell into water, blackening the swirl of colours you once built with passion. And it's deteriorated by the fear of the unknown that holds you back in fighting for what you desire for. Kinda depressing, but I'm stuck with little things I can do to change the situation. So, back into topic, what do I hope for in this year? Well, my brain is severely yearning to go to bed now, so I'd leave the thinking to later and I guess what I need is to live a happy life, deals with things smoothly and always go for better. =]
Well, stepping into a brand new year, hasn't got any remarkable special feeling for me, frankly.
Now what matters more to me is the flow of my academic calendar, like when would we be entering the next sem, it somehow feels more significant.
Been celebrating new year eve with bffs at cafe, played with snow sprays and watched people around went crazier as 12.00am came close. Artificial snow flakes and toxic smell of aerosol all around. And thus I made up my mind I'd never celebrate new year in that way again, I never fond of being in a bunch of crazy crowd much. I observed people, and saw many of them were actually standing there staring into somewhere or just wearing a blank expression, which made me wonder were they actually getting any fun? Why do people simply like gathering somewhere like it's a norm even though they don't know what to do there? Sometimes people's behaviour is strange, we force ourselves into doing something, or say just following the norm blindly as we think it's accepted by the majority, and ignore the actual meaning of doing it. We don't really think much about things like: is what I'm doing worth doing? Does it brings any good to me or to others? Do I feel happy doing this? Sometimes we spend money on entertainment that don't really bring happiness to us, even though we knew that well, so why still continue? This's something worth thinking about in this new year. Act wisely. Wisdom, has always been what I'm aspiring for.
The first day of new year.. Hasn't been too nice for me. Maybe what happened on me this day is a reminder for me to be more alert and careful throughout the year. Yep, be more focus.
Review of 2012? It's a year neither too good nor too bad for me I guess.. Can be too much to say and nothing to say at the same time. Well, no mood to comment much at the moment.. :p Sleepy and dizzy..
Hope in 2013? Just occurred to me that I didn't do a list of goals like I used to do in some of the past years, really didn't even thought about that. Anyway, has any of the goals set ever been achieved successfully before? No idea about that, I've even forgotten the goals I once held on to. Sometimes I'd think, am I losing grip of my dreams bit by bit over the years? Definitely yes. The reality that you grow to realize more and more would engulf your fantasy like an ink drop fell into water, blackening the swirl of colours you once built with passion. And it's deteriorated by the fear of the unknown that holds you back in fighting for what you desire for. Kinda depressing, but I'm stuck with little things I can do to change the situation. So, back into topic, what do I hope for in this year? Well, my brain is severely yearning to go to bed now, so I'd leave the thinking to later and I guess what I need is to live a happy life, deals with things smoothly and always go for better. =]
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