别让我无声的呐喊  成了明晚的烟花璀璨

加油！

人生中每一个难关，困扰，忧愁，痛苦，瓶颈，都需要自己去跨越，解决，克服，抚平，甚至遗忘，或许需要别人的援手，外在的鼓励。如果成功了，那么自己就变得更好了。

捆绑我的每一个烦恼，需要我一一为他们松绑，要靠自己，自己过得了关，就变更强大了。
要告诉自己，累只是一个假象，它帮不了你，只是一个借口。

加油，每一个在努力的人儿 :)

来自森林的她

穿梭在由钢骨水泥建造的异类森林

一切冷冰冰的

那上千片玻璃墙反射的阳光

都变得没有温度


在森林里

林地潮湿的青苔上

还有纵横交错的树根上

爬满坚韧的蚂蚁

在城市里

黑黑的柏油路上

满满的是蚂蚁一般的行人


有城市人告诉过她

他们反对破坏森林

因为森林的毁灭

也对他们造成不良影响

可后来她发现城市人

依然故我地因自我利益

一步一步地摧毁她家园


人的矛盾

是愚鲁

或是恶意？

纸飞机

风平凡，雨平凡

花平凡，树平凡

人平凡，影平凡

你平凡，我平凡

只是... 我给的爱再怎么不平凡

你给的却总是孤单。

＊

风自在，雨自在

花自在，树自在

人自在，影自在

你自在，我自在

因为... 你写的爱再怎么不自在

我写的都一定是爱。


——《纸飞机》吴子云

My new blog! 我又一个的新部落格！XD

部落格序言 XD

还记得以前中学时代对写作兴趣颇浓，每每创作出一篇作品的过程是兴奋的，成果是喜悦的。还记得那时的志愿是作家，可是后来因为种种因素这愿望的光芒逐渐暗淡了下来，就像月亮的光辉被彩云遮盖了，只是月亮被云遮盖是片刻的，而我的情况是长远的。

当时排山倒海的功课和考试几乎令我无暇顾及课业以外的事情，几篇创作也是在老师给予的压力下完成的。还记得小学时曾经写过一篇《哈利波特外传》（哈哈），写到一半不知如何继续下去，而现在那本簿子也不知跑到哪里去了（伤心）.. 还有当时想过写一本小说，故事情节架构好了，只是一直没空（或是没劲？）提笔写，后来中三时老师鼓励我写一篇短篇小说交给她帮我参加华语创作比赛，我就无可奈何地把那个故事架构用在这短篇小说上了。后来这短篇小说竟获得了县级第二名，州级第三名，全国特优奖！那时我真的乐开怀，这种喜悦是考到非常好的成绩都比不上的快乐，因为我总觉得我要的成就感不是来自成绩，而是这种因为自己的兴趣和能力被认同而得到的赞赏。当时的作品就是《图书馆的神秘插曲》。其实觉得这名放得不好，可是又想不出更好的，所以就随便了 XD

接近SPM时情况更糟，那时已经萌生了在马来西亚当作家没什么前途的概念，当作家大概只能当副业，不能当正业，所以把目标转向科学领域，可能当个生物学家吧，因为对生物学的兴趣最浓了。经过一番转折，如今选择了医科，一个以前压根没考虑过的科系 =='

无论如何，写作还是会带给我一种特殊的成就感，因为创作让你当上文字的主宰，用一个个字编织出一篇属于你的花园，给予它感觉，气氛，让读者跟着你思绪的脚步，慢慢进入你的世界里感受你的心灵，也或许可以给读者新的体验，鼓励。一本书可以流芳百世，一句话可以感动世人的心，也有着改变世界的潜能，记载下来的文字，是长远的。

Visit me: http://gardenofreverie.blogspot.com/ :)

知足 常乐

我想我应该学学知足常乐。

翻看之前写在记事本的一个小篇章，上面写着：妈妈是个很容易满足的人，我祝她母亲节快乐，她说：我每天都快乐啊，有Hippi就快乐了。一如当初听到这句话时，有着纯纯的感动。

有时候会觉得，我是不是对自己，对别人要求太高了？每当我提出这个疑问时，姐姐一定会举脚赞同，说：当然是啦！

有时候不想凡事做到最好（不过我从中学开始也没有做到最好了 :p），但是就一定会觉得，我不尽力一点，将来会后悔吗？是不是不应该这样不尽力呢？然后就会鞭策自己，然后形成压力，无法阻挡。我非常讨厌这样的压力的感觉，最近我已看得比较开了吧，考试没有像以前那样熬夜了，可是压力感依然存在。

有时候会迷惑，我是在朝着自己想要的生活过日子吗？我做的东西有意义吗？做什么才比较有意义？

要活得自己快乐就好，对我来说好像很难做到。

我也想我的确是太在意别人得眼光了，弄得自己心里好矛盾，好困苦。我也想不去在意别人眼光，像他那样，可是做不到，我有他一半就好了。

他总是说，我做事情开心就好，干吗去管别人？

这样的心态有好也有不好，好在可以活得很自在，不好就是很容易冒犯别人。

可是像我这样非常在意别人怎么看，就太辛苦了，我想改变心态，可是就是不能哦。

我想我该像妈妈学习，满足于一切。妈妈一向对任何事物都不抱怨，有的珍惜，没有的也不欲望。爸妈几十年的婚姻相处都几乎不吵架，每天平平静静的过日子，这样的感情虽然平淡，但稳定有安全感。

知足常乐，是个人人都懂的道理，可是要真正做到，终究是一门学问。

感恩所有，珍惜一切。

竹籬上 停留著蜻蜓 玻璃瓶裡插滿 小小森林

关于你.. 所有的好《铭记于心》

你说我脾气坏，常生气，我也觉得我情绪变太多了，所以，我想把你的好全写下，在要生气你的时候翻看，这样或许能缓和我对你的不满，对吗？:p

有了这想法很久了，但是懒惰写，今天才真的提起劲来写，哈哈。

这是我第一次写关于你的好的段落：

我喜欢你每次在下课后等我一起走，有机会时都来找我说话，走路时很绅士的让我先走，下雨时让我走没有淋雨的那一边，用温柔的语气跟我说话，对我生活的关切，还有每次看见我时都给我那温暖的微笑，我好喜欢。

然后.. 还有什么呢.. 嗯..

我喜欢你在我不舒服时恳切的关心，还特地给我送药来，好窝心

我喜欢你在我哭泣时迫切的眼神，拼命劝我不哭，还有能耐把我逗笑

我喜欢你去旅行时心里念着我，累得半死了还兑现你的承诺写信给我

我喜欢你因为我的一句逗你的话开心的笑声，好甜

我喜欢你有注意观察我喜欢的东西，然后给了我一个总结，我心里暗暗赞叹，因为我自己都没认真注意过

我喜欢你在乎我到怕我闷而特地跑来借我手机玩的那时候，好感动

我喜欢你因为我可以不顾别人的眼光，这样的你，好勇敢

有一次，你让我玩你的手机，我说想玩一个游戏，你马上去下载，我说会不会浪费你的data，而你给我一句‘你要玩哦，当然可以啦’，好温暖

我喜欢你对我滔滔不绝的说起你小学中学的事迹，坦白了你以前有点可怕的事情，这样的坦诚，我自愧不如

我想我是喜欢听你讲废话的，没错，这样感觉很轻松

我喜欢你哄我的时候，语气和神情很温柔，超爱你的温柔

我喜欢你在知道我觉得压力的时候给的鼓励，不停地说服我不要紧张，一切会很好

我喜欢你带我出去的时候努力的注意四周，尽量保护我的安全，虽然觉得你有时太过头了，弄到我懊恼

我喜欢你第一个给我的东西竟然是一个防狼器，要我出去时都带着，让我遇到危险时可以防卫

我喜欢你坚持不让我一个人出去，陪着我还当苦力帮我拿东西，辛苦你了，傻瓜

我喜欢你知道我晚上出去后叮咛我早点回家，注意安全，还撑着不睡等我信息，虽然有时还是睡着了 =='

我喜欢你不吝啬的赞美，虽然我因为不好意思而很少赞美你


关于你的美好，到尽头了吗？

心情.. 不明..

生日刚好过了半小时，还无睡意，回到这荒芜已久的部落格爬爬格子，纪念刚步入20岁的我随笔的兴致。

姐妹啊，不是有了爱情就不要友情，我如今明了了你当时的心情，现在也想让另一个姐妹了解，我一直都没有要忽略你们的意思，如果你真的这样觉得。最近真的被刺伤了，你知道吗？我相信，如果你和我一样的情况，你也会想保持联系的，我不会因此奚落伤害你，如果你也赞同，要不要顾顾我的感受？我不是刀枪不入的，十年的友情了，哪些是开玩笑，哪些是话中带真的酸涩，我是听得出的，可能你是想为我好，而我太敏感了，这样的话我抱歉，可我还是被刺伤了 :'( 还是要谢谢你们抽空为我庆祝生日，你第二天有上课也陪我到半夜，而你半夜了还当车夫送我们回家，还遇上road block要检查你license, 愿我们友情根深蒂固，无论怎样都是好姐妹，欧颗？

<3 friendship forever <3

如果.. 有如果

如果，月亮和太阳相爱，那是不是不该？

如果，大树和松鼠相爱，那是不是依赖？

如果，闪电和雷声相爱，那是不是太快？

如果，铅笔和笔擦相爱，那是不是阻碍？

如果，白云和雨水相爱，那是不是悲哀？

如果，小草和露珠相爱，那是不是无奈？

如果，烟雾与山峰相爱，那是不是意外？

如果，你和我相爱，那会不会注定伤害？

Stepping into 2013..?

Today is the first day that we would need to write the year as 2013 while we're writing the date, which for me has always needed some time to adapt to the change. :p

Well, stepping into a brand new year, hasn't got any remarkable special feeling for me, frankly.
Now what matters more to me is the flow of my academic calendar, like when would we be entering the next sem, it somehow feels more significant.

Been celebrating new year eve with bffs at cafe, played with snow sprays and watched people around went crazier as 12.00am came close. Artificial snow flakes and toxic  smell of aerosol all around. And thus I made up my mind I'd never celebrate new year in that way again, I never fond of being in a bunch of crazy crowd much. I observed people, and saw many of them were actually standing there staring into somewhere or just wearing a blank expression, which made me wonder were they actually getting any fun? Why do people simply like gathering somewhere like it's a norm even though they don't know what to do there? Sometimes people's behaviour is strange, we force ourselves into doing something, or say just following the norm blindly as we think it's accepted by the majority, and ignore the actual meaning of doing it. We don't really think much about things like: is what I'm doing worth doing? Does it brings any good to me or to others? Do I feel happy doing this? Sometimes we spend money on entertainment that don't really bring happiness to us, even though we knew that well, so why still continue? This's something worth thinking about in this new year. Act wisely. Wisdom, has always been what I'm aspiring for.

The first day of new year.. Hasn't been too nice for me. Maybe what happened on me this day is a reminder for me to be more alert and careful throughout the year. Yep, be more focus.

Review of 2012? It's a year neither too good nor too bad for me I guess.. Can be too much to say and nothing to say at the same time. Well, no mood to comment much at the moment.. :p Sleepy and dizzy..

Hope in 2013? Just occurred to me that I didn't do a list of goals like I used to do in some of the past years, really didn't even thought about that. Anyway, has any of the goals set ever been achieved successfully before? No idea about that, I've even forgotten the goals I once held on to. Sometimes I'd think, am I losing grip of my dreams bit by bit over the years? Definitely yes. The reality that you grow to realize more and more would engulf your fantasy like an ink drop fell into water, blackening the swirl of colours you once built with passion. And it's deteriorated by the fear of the unknown that holds you back in fighting for what you desire for. Kinda depressing, but I'm stuck with little things I can do to change the situation. So, back into topic, what do I hope for in this year? Well, my brain is severely yearning to go to bed now, so I'd leave the thinking to later and I guess what I need is to live a happy life, deals with things smoothly and always go for better. =]

思

听

那心在滴血的频率

一滴   一滴

不缓不急

坠落

晕开纸上的忧虑

化作心痛的旋律

纠结成一片锁链


无所谓

经过阳光的洗礼

终究会退色


然后

再重新染上

一滴再一滴的

泪水

Reverie-ing..

Flying over the crystal blue sea

Brushing through the palm trees

Traveling across the velvet sky

Just wish to see thee ♥

Kids, you're lovely + awesome!

Been teaching at kindergarten for one and a half month.
Although the period was quite short, the experience being with kids has changed my view on them - not all of the children are some rude, wicked and unlovely brats whom I'm not used to have fondness towards.
I'd admit that before I first had the chance to mingle with that bunch of kids, I was actually having a general bad impression towards them. Maybe that's because those kids I'd met before are all kinda.. untamed, i'd say.
Surprisingly, in a few days' time, I was quite delighted by their naive spirits and their creativity.
Their speech, though not really completely expressing what's on their mind, showed their simple wants.
Kids are simple, they want attention.
They like to tell stories. If it's a real story, it's usually bragging, like they've got new stuff, gone to somewhere with family, or being able to do something nice. If it's about imagination, you'll be awed by the flow of their story line which shows pure creativity.
So, I'm convinced that kids are actually adorable like most people think.
Plus, kids nowadays are becoming more and more good looking is it! Many cute girls and cute boys in a class!  ≧◡≦
For them, if you give them love and care, and they'll love you back, with pure hearts.=]

Teacher says, 'go hug each other and stand still!' as a punishment after they played too much~ cute not? :D

So cute! Agree?

My students and I~ Kids, why didn't you show some smiles huh? 

Don't look down on kids, they could be some great person in the future! Children, best wishes to you all! <3

心。湖

心底的话像一片湖。

很多时候，

一块石头跌落湖中，或是风吹，或是人为，

沉在湖底的心情，

就会化作文字，

涌现到湖面上。

一开始的千言万语，

最后化作只言片语。

时间一过，

文字就慢慢的沉淀，

直到湖水，清澈宁静。

这些话啊，

一旦不及时打捞上来，

很快的，

就会被淹没了。

终于，了解，

那心情，

其实只如昙花一现，

顷刻即逝。

虽然如此，

还是希望能将那刻的心情，

记录下来，

以备往后翻阅，

再细想当时的情感。

I'm therefore in love with my new study table, great thanks and love to daddy and mummy. =)

I've been wanting a new study table very much, indeed, as my previous table was a child-use one. It has accompanied me during my studying life for at least 11 years. It's not as though I haven't got any feelings to it, but believe me, it's really too small and too low for my height now being an adult (not wanting to call myself an adult actually, but that's the fact), so forgive me for being pitiless to it. XD

Weeks ago mum suggested to dad that my table should be changed, after I mentioned about getting a new table. I've done some searching for the designs of study tables, and found some simple and yet beautiful designs. I showed them to mum and dad, and they approved to help me seeking ways to complete it. Show you the designs I've been referring.

I've used the design of table assembling the first pic, and the rack design resembling the second pic. Dad brought me and mum to find a carpenter and discuss the designs, including the shape, dimensions, colour and pattern of the wood for the table. As the carpenter also suggested us to buy the table from the furniture store so that the cost would be lower, dad brought us to a few stores to look if there's any table of my liking. Unluckily, there wasn't any table that suits the design in my mind, most of them were office-type. Dad also went to buy some bathroom glass shelves to upgrade our bathroom. So we spent almost the whole afternoon going here and there in my dad's off day.

I was really happy and grateful for my parents who tried their best to fulfill my wish. That feels great, indeed.

The next day after I've decided how my table should be, dad informed the carpenter uncle to come and fed him with all the details. Dad also wanted a rack to be set up above the piano too. We were told the work might take a month to be finished.

But the good news came faster than I've expected. Two days ago my table arrived and set up, which means I have two months more to enjoy it before leaving for studying degree.

Again I spent an afternoon arranging everything (or precisely just almost everything :p) and did some simple decorations. Now the table looks neat, but not beautified enough yet. I plan to do some drawings on the wall, design tomorrow maybe. :D

Some glimpses of my table.

Got the idea? XD

Now now, let me continue my reverie to perfect my lovely table. (Haha, a bit too much this affection is it?)

Leaves and Notebooks - My favourite collections

Every day, every hour and every minute is special, when we're close together.

梦境

那天晚上

做了一个梦

一个很可怕的梦

梦到失去...

原来白天里的担忧

会如此放大一百倍地反映在梦中

这才让我察觉

那恐惧原来如此深刻...

伴随我的梦

一路以来

都是毫无理章  怪诞无序的

从这一幕  毫无头绪地转到下一幕

一开始本来是这人  下一刻忽然变成了另一人

从一部电影中知道

梦里的世界  是自己创造  并身历其境的

而创造和存在在那世界里这两个过程

是同时在进行的

无论那个梦境多么奇怪

身在其中的我们

都不会觉得奇怪

只会在醒来后

才发觉梦里的情景

根本不合逻辑...

那晚这个梦  也是不合常理的

但当我知道那噩耗时

心痛甚于刀割

梦里的我痛哭

醒来时还隐约感觉到之前在抽噎

心有余悸...

几年前  我曾在文章中写过

‘在失去后才懂得珍惜

是人类的通病’

古今往来  都一样...

也许这梦要让我省思  要更疼惜

身边陪着我的每一个 <3

原来鱼儿也会感到寂寞

家里一直都有养鱼

鲤鱼  金鱼  孔雀鱼  不知名的鱼

都养过

在我们家待了最长时间的

是鲤鱼  爸爸最爱的鱼

养鱼  是爸的坚持

我们也听惯了

鱼缸里‘打气’的流水声

一旦停电

水声停止了

就会感觉屋里忽然空虚了  太寂静了

前天鱼缸里两只黄色小鲤鱼的其中一只突然去了

剩下另一只孤零零地留在水里

或许是相处多时的同伴忽然不见了

它害相思  抑或害怕  或空虚

或寂寞

而变得不动也不吃

只栖息在靠墙角的角落

是待着  还是等待着？

曾听说

鱼的记忆只有七秒

我会说我完全不苟同

若是如此

我家的小鲤鱼

怎会因失去同伴

而静止不动将近一整天呢？

爸要去买回一两条鱼给它作伴  填补鱼缸的空虚

妈问爸  养鱼的乐趣是何以？

爸说  看鱼悠闲悠闲的  就是乐趣所在了

于是

两只有着金鱼尾巴鲤鱼身体可爱的混血鱼

加入了鱼缸家庭

添了红百两色

两只鱼儿朝气蓬勃  一放入水里即游来游去找食物吃

还去和忧郁寡欢的黄色鲤鱼打交道

在它身边游绕

今天

黄色小鲤再现活泼了

不再因为孤独而自我封闭了

看鱼儿悠游自在的

果然有一番乐趣

＊

我才知道

原来鱼儿也会感到寂寞

好喜欢这首词

青风相待，白云相爱

梦不到紫罗袍共黄金带

一茅斋，野花开

管甚谁家兴废谁成败？

陋巷单瓢亦乐哉

贫，气如山

达，志如山

——《山坡羊》（摘于《射雕英雄传》）